Regular readers have probably noticed that I haven’t been writing as much lately. The Daily Bookmarks posts have still been coming, but I haven’t written a real post in a while. In the last two weeks, I’ve only written one real post.
I’ve been trying to figure out what’s going on that I haven’t been writing. Partly it is that I have felt a bit overwhelmed by all the subscriptions I have to read. My Google Reader trends say I’ve read over 9,000 items in the last 30 days–no wonder I feel a bit overwhelmed. (Although “read” perhaps not the most accurate term; many of those were simply scanning headlines.) I’m trying to whittle down my list now. I think Darren Kuropatwa has the right idea: focusing on the posts which educate me the most, not necessarily just what interests me. I don’t think I’ll ever get to the 20 subscriptions he says he is down to now, nor am I sure that I would want to. I read the news through RSS and I have several fun things as well, and I want to keep those. (Yeah for Cute Overload, which makes me smile every day with its redonkulous fluff!)
Besides the fact that I need to find a better balance between my time spent reading and my time spent writing is that I am feeling some old perfectionist tendencies creeping in. I have lots of thoughts bouncing around in my head about a number of topics, but I haven’t posted them here because they are only half formed. I find myself thinking that lots of ideas aren’t ready to write about yet because I’m struggling to make connections or haven’t decided what I really believe about a topic. I do know that people read what I write, and I know that once I put it here it will continue to be available for a very long time. Sometimes I feel like I need to have my ideas completely solidified and perfect before I share them.
I don’t think that’s what I want this blog to be. I know I should start simply writing about some of it and put something down. Many times just the act of writing helps me coalesce my thoughts. I’ve kept handwritten journals sporadically since second grade; I know that I process ideas by writing about them. Learning more is one of my main goals for blogging, and I don’t think I can do that as effectively if I try to wait until my ideas are perfect before I post. This isn’t really the forum for my most polished ideas; it should be a place for me to reflect as I’m going along, in whatever stage those thoughts are. Heck, if Will Richardson can admit that he was “stuck,” I figure I’m entitled to not always know quite what I want to write.
So right now, I guess I’m at the stage where I recognize that my desire to have it “perfect” is getting in the way of writing and sharing and learning. I’m not sure how to get past it yet, but at least I think I’ve identified the reason I’m stuck.
Then again, I could be wrong. That’s OK though.
Has anyone else felt this way? How do you get “unstuck” from a spot like this?